I've been in the silence
Where I only heard whispers
But suddenly a breeze of wind
Coming over
Carrying a message
That gives the sting

Has it means to foretold the future?
Or is it a mis sung song,
Just swingin' thru my ear?
Is it aiming for my heart,
Or is it saved to wound
Somebody else's?

It says an end of a journey
It says an end of a laugh

{Indira Dhian +Tuesday, June 24th 2003 18:15+ }

I felt lonely last nite, even when I was only gone to bed. So I sms Jedi, and I cant understand what he meant. He sms me twice. The First one just to told me that he was at his mom's bedroom, checked her email. Then he said "good nite angel". Now, the second sms, went about 2/3 hours later, it said only 2 words: "maaf yah". Utnil now, I still cant understand what he meant by sorry. I dont want to let my minds slaving me into thinking negative things. I just dont want to. It'll just ruin my day.

Oh, dear I'm started to cry already. I got this dream last night. I was at his house, there's a lot of girls pictures in his bed. Even when we just arrived. It was wierd. Coz i thought he never got back to that house. At least not recently. Then I found this picture. And I cried. I dont know who she is. But I felt sickness, and pain. Among those pictures, none of them was me. He got none of my pictures with him. But suddenly he came, and hugged me from my back [I always love when he did that], and he told me not to worry about a thing. That everything will be alright.

I got up this morning, said my prayers, jump to my Bible, and started to read, prayed, and cried. I always prayed for him each day, and everytime ... I cried.